Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Four Leaf Clovers Now

For five years I have walked the beaches of my little hideaway; and as I searched for answers to the Universe I would find pieces of sea glass.  Each major score was given up by the ocean in response to a very difficult dilemma. 
I returned home for a very trying time in my life and thought I would be here for two weeks.  Illness intervened and I have been here now for over a month.  In that time as I searched for answers and talked to God I would find four leaf clovers!
It took some time for me to realize that the clovers were; while delightful, one of those signs that I tend to miss.  St. Patrick used the three leaf clover to teach the trinity to what he considered pagans in his time.  I realized that my four leaf clovers, were for me, my sign to remember, that God has carried me through all things with Patience, and would again take me through this.  
I needed to be here for many different reasons that at the time I could not foresee; however once again to my utter amazement; and I still don't know why I am always so surprised; God knew I was needed here and not back in my little hideaway in Mexico.  
You see I believe that God lives within us all; and if we listen patiently to his voice, he will guide us.  However being SO very human I always need those signs he sends me, to remind me, to shut up and listen and then I usually get it right!  I have found a plethora of four leaf clovers so you can imagine how closed off I was to Gods voice until last night.
It was a simple moment in time with my husband and son that made me realize WHAT God was telling me; and then the flood gates opened and I slept last night like I have not slept in years.
So once again while not all signs are obvious I am grateful to God that he takes the time in my life; to keep pushing me into the light, so I don't miss the real party, which is living in this moment which is all we have.
Live with Love and Laugh Often


Sunday, May 8, 2011

Baja Days and then the Days: Mother's Day

Baja Days and then the Days: Mother's Day: "Today I am reminded of who I am and how I got here! I am the person I am today because I was blessed with the gift of life! Giving birth r..."

Mother's Day

Today I am reminded of who I am and how I got here!  I am the person I am today because I was blessed with the gift of life!  Giving birth redefined me as a person.  I was one person until the moment I gave birth 29 years ago!  It was in that very moment that all of life and the mysteries surrounding it were clarified for me.  I knew it was going to be a journey that I did not want to miss.  All things had new meaning.  My belief structure in so many things began to change the moment God gave me the responsibility of another person.  Then I was blessed once again shortly thereafter; and while that was all I could have they became my greatest treasures and will always be.  My Children Brought out the best in me and helped me learn to deal with the worst in me.  They helped me see the world in all it's brightness and glorious colors; to appreciate each day that I draw a breath.   My children keep me grounded and humble as I pray each day and night for their safety and their health.  I realized that Happiness is a word that turns to Joy; such a small word yet so much more than happiness; each time I hear their voice or see their face.  I realized that there is not a richer person on this earth than I for the gifts I have been given by my two children each time they say I love you!  I am a far greater person than I could ever have imagined and have achieved far greater things in my life than I originally planned; just for becoming a Mother!  I would not trade this role in my life for ALL the money in the World.  So today I say thank you to my children for the journey thus far; it has been epic and I look forward to the rest of the story!
Live with Love and Laugh Often